A disaster happened to me, hit me tremendously..i fall down helplessly and live my life upside down..absent from work..din bother bout daily routine..moodless..doing stupid wrong things...tears dripping most of the time...really in bad condition~
& i took more than one week to stand up and to sort out from d MESS ~!!!
Even my friends and family never see me in such condition, something happen to make me jeorpodize my work, deteriorating my health (physically or mentally)..for such unnecesary reason! I know if i continued that, none of the ppl ard me will forgiv me for what i hav done to hurt myself....!
Now as im writing this, its 5am..i still remember that time at this hour..im alone at MaChung - Taman Sahabat.. i was totally broke down..cudnt accept the decision made, i was forced to say that i grant them but who knows how painful is it deep down inside bottom of my heart?
things were too cruel and sudden altho i had prepared for the worst...but who can easily accept the worst consequences especially bout something or someone u really cared for???
I know that things btween us had already being a fact and history..
but i really hate myself to have still missed you so much..
although i have my own life now as usual..open relationship..
but mayb what our friend - R said was correct..
i cudnt get into a relationship ..sincerely yet..
bcos...i havent got you out of my heart yet...
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